55,000 words. I have reached a critical point for the protagonist. Hit by bad news a couple of months ago, with which she ‘rolled with the punches’, she is hit by another hit.
Having Bipolar and its connected weirdness when it comes to emotional response in a time of crisis makes this REALLY difficult to write about. I forced out a chapter, but it doesn’t work. It’s not who she is, to be basically, “Well, what do we do?”.
For me-I would shut down. My brain would stop working for awhile. My thoughts would be completely disjointed and unreasoned, and my outward emotion would become completely flat. I would be like that until my brain ‘rebooted in safe mode’ (I have no idea what goes on in there or how it happens, but that’s my experience). I would be intensely logical in dealing with the situation, almost inhumanly so. All options would be on the table for consideration, and I would want to weigh them all. I would want to get alone for awhile to think through it, then possibly seek some kind of assistance/advice.
The bad thing is… I am not the person my protagonist is, nor have I experienced what she is experiencing.
She’s 18 years old. Her parents were killed in a house fire which she thinks was caused by some nefarious entity. She did her best to get through it, with the help of her best frioend and her best friend’s family. She went ahead and began college, attending a few days/couple of weeks of classes. She escorted a guy that sparked her interest home after he injured herself, but then got freaked out by unfamiliar things in the evening in the city, fell in a fountain that turned out to be a portal to another world, and while there, found out that she is somehow connected to the fae beings that live there.
She made it back to this world, reunited with the friend, went to a party with her friend, and they were drugged. The friend has been kidnapped and taken through a portal.
Now she wakes up. She’s a strong person, but good grief, she’s under a LOT of strain. Does she shut down? For how long? What does she do with the guy who rescued her before she wound up through the portal as well?
I wrote a draft chapter. It works, kind of. If she is an emotionless robot. Anyone have any thing that might help? Links to expressions of emotion, especially interior experience wourld really help me here.
Thanks in advance!