I don’t go to church.
I have some spiritual reasons, but those are things I’m not sure I want to get into right now. The fact, for me, is this: I have no desire to join a social club.
There have been a few churches in my life, and every one of them had exceptional individuals. Individuals that… well… shined. I may not have agreed with all of the technicalities of belief, but their enthusiasm was just uplifting.
Then there were the fun ones that just made it a negative experience. The people that you felt ashamed to talk to, not because they were necessarily “holier”, but because they projected it selectively. An example of this would be the classic lady who gossips about how bad it is such and such is a gossip.
My brain just can’t handle that level of duality in the world. (If you read some earlier posts, you’ll understand this.)
It literally gives me a panic attack thinking about it very much.
notice: some of my personal spirituality follows. If you are strongly offended by non-traditional views, please stop now.
Ok. I have never been able to roll very well with the whole creation/ark/etc thing as literal and using technologies of the time. I can’t understand why so much focus is put on minor, trivial laws that Jesus seemed irritated by. I can’t roll with the whole “visible works” thing as a scoresheet for “who’s the best christian”. Finally, I have no proof whatsoever, nothing I can’t plausibly explain in life or otherwise as “proof” or “requiring” a deity of any form.
Let me guess. Confused?
Let me explain. Faith is belief in that which you have no evidence. Therefore, faith is either a delusional state or it is an active choice.
I choose to believe in God. I choose to believe that it will matter that Jesus died on the cross for my sins. It makes me happy.
Based on this choice, I imagine God as a consciousness. That consciousness has a personality, a thought proces on some level that we can understand and connect with. This being is an extradimensional being, meaning that, to Him, we are at the same level that pictures are to us. To us, He is as comprehendable as our finger would be to a sentient drawing of a square. We can be aware. We can interact to a limited degree. We have no way to understand.
That would make Angels potentially what we think of as ET. (Yay Aliens!)
Heaven is an unknown to me. Reincarnation is a possibility. Beings that we would comprehend as demigods can exist, but I don’t worry about them. They’re interesting to think about. (Yay Cthulhu!) I don’t want to sing in a choir or be constantly happy.
God is perfect only by His own definition. Consider this: God created Lucifer, knowing that he would rebel. God chose not to instantly obliterate him. Lucifer only actually has to fight with angels, and he hangs out in heaven. Time passes for Lucifer and the other angels. Therefore, angels and demons and all that are definite maybes for 3rd dimensional beings.
I think hell may be reincarnation. Which would make this hell. Which would explain depression and such.
Science is all just working out the “how?” of God’s… whatever you want to call it. I’m somewhat hesitant to call it a “creation”, because I believe that science is probably right. Given enough time they may figure out how to reproduce it and use it to escape entropy. Remember the alien thing? Totally expecting aliens to show up for the Revelations/Tribulation bash.
Finally: here are the big Jesus rules I go by. The ten commandments are nice, but they’re pretty generic. Jesus gave some rules and here’s how I understand them. (You may understand them differently, and want to bring me X bible verse and interpretation, but… how about don’t?)
1: Be kind
This means that if you can do, do it. If you see a need and can provide somehow, do it. Not to the point of absurdity, but if you can help someone else and it means a little discomfort somehow for you, isn’t that what you would wish someone else would do if you were in a tight spot? That means listening when someone talks. That means sharing if you can. That means saying nice things. That means putting other people ever so slightly before yourself in importance.
2: Communion with God is right here, right now
Every moment. Everywhere. God sees you pooping. Yes, that freaked me out for a while once I thought about it. I have wonderings about whether or not we may be God’s own simulation. (I make sure some of my first purchases in Sims 3 are steel bladder, then trance meditative sleep, hardly hungry, and dirt defiant. Just sayin’, God.)
3: You can be a “light unto the world” without being a jackass about it
I get on a religion kick from time to time, where I want to talk about it. Generally, though, I don’t. I don’t want to persuade you to believe like I do or anything. If you like how I do things and think it’s a good way to roll with things. Great. If not, well, this makes me happy. It’s what I’m going with.